Dangerous Business

Yes, I am posting this here too… I am too lazy to make a real post.

Traits:
1. I have a very poor self image, and I am very hard on myself. Even to the point of hating myself, a good part of the time. This is my worst trait.
2. I have a problem with how all these things are centered on me. I hate being the center of attention.
3. I have OCD on certain things. I actually arranged all my facts into groups. Which, you can obviously see.
4. For some reason, a lot of people come to me for advice.

Living:
5. Some day, I wish to live on a sustainable farm. Complete with bee hives.
6. Given the opportunity, I would move to Ireland… right now. I could be packed and ready to go within 10 minutes. Which is sad, never having been there before.

Dying:
7. I am okay with dying, if it is my time to go.
8. I almost wasn’t born (don’t worry, not abortion).
9. I very nearly drowned when I was 17.
10. I watched my horse die. He died with his head practically in my lap.
11. Some of the hardest moments in my life, came before I was 21. Others around me, who have seen 30-40 more years experience than I have, agree with that statement.

Religion:
12. I once made the mistake of asking God for patience. Not advisable.
13. I have toyed with the idea of going to a monastery/abbey and completely devoting all my time to God. I don’t know if I could quite handle it though. God made my heart desire a family.
14. I have a habbit of when I pray, it turns into an actual conversation and I refer to God as “dad”. I worry sometimes that that’s not a good idea.

Misc:
15. I have four good friends. Two of which are brothers that I have known for 15 years, and two that I met through horses.
16. If given the choice, I would be nocturnal.
17. I am addicted to wikipedia. I don’t ever edit it, but I read it constantly. I love to study random things, all the time.
18. I have a CCP and CCW.
19. My three favorite smells are: Freshly cut grass, rain, and books.
20. Fox hunting is my lost passion… I wish I still could.
21. I want to learn how to play the violin, and the bagpipe.
22. I almost had a brother, through adoption.
23. I have trained horses for the Police Dept. for use in Marti Gras in Mobile, Al.
24. I once had a headache appear so quickly and so forcefully that it knocked me to the floor. It then persisted in staying around for a couple weeks as a massive migrane.
25. I have ridden horses casually/for fun with an Olympian or two.

I know some people think that I am odd for liking “chick flicks”, but really they are some of the better movies out there. They have real characters with some real feeling behind them. Not like the cookie-cut action flick, with no real emotion. Sometimes you just need a movie that you want to cry with, you know?

Which might make me sound like I am on the border of gay. Trust me, I am not.
Are you married? No.
Are you gay? No.
Are you working? Yes.

It reminded me just how much I really want to visit the Irish countryside. It’s something I have been wanting to do for nearly ten years now. After seeing those sheep grazing in those green fields and the lavender interspersed throughout the hillside, it made me long once again. Strongly.
I know I will get there when it is my time to get there, but sometimes that time is way too far off.

My mom and I both agree that we need to buy both the movie and the book. Even dad was saying it was a movie worth getting. So, we’ll see what Christmas holds.

In other news:
I saw one of the new Harry Potter trailers for the first time today. I am not sure exactly how I missed it, but it was really good to see. I would have preferred Professor Slughorn been a little fatter, but other than that… So far, it looks spot on.
Good job, chaps.

Let me see if I can figure out how to post the trailer on here for all my hapless victims to be forced to watch.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince HD

Edit: Nope, can’t force you to watch it. I can just post the link in hopes that you do watch it. You lucked out this time.

P.S. You’ll need Quicktime.

Edit: I was informed the purple is probably bracken, not lavender, in the movie. :)