Dangerous Business

I don’t know what it is about blog that I start them, do very well with updating them for a couple months, and then nothing. It’s like I completely forget that I have them at all. I imagine part of it is laziness. Not feeling like writing down everything that’s going on in my life right now.

Of course part of it is that I am still unemployed. Not having any good stories to share about my experiences at work is not conducive to a good blog post. That shouldn’t stop me though, because I have plenty of other things that I could be writing about. So, I guess I’ll just write about those things this time. Maybe. If I can remember them all.

Well, for starters I just got back from Pigeon Forge, TN. with all of my family and friends. It was particularly awesome, since we were camping. Most of us anyway (looks at Kyle and Clint). Jim Leslie and myself slept out under the stars all weekend. It was a really nice weekend for it. My only complaint is that the second night, we put up a canopy and dew collected on it and started doing chinese water torture on me in the middle of the night.

We went to Dollywood on Saturday and had a pretty good time. The “kids” and adults pretty much spent the entire time in oposite ends of the park, as near as I can figure. At the end of the day we met back up with them, and the girls, Mr. and Mrs. Leslie, and my father went roller-coastering. Kyle, Clint, and I went off to the other end of the park to the musical instrument store, and then went and got funnel cakes. Yum.

On the way out of Dollywood, Clint and I bought Rachel a baby sippy-cup, to everyone’s delight. It was pretty hillarious.
After that, 6 of us piled into Kyle’s Jeep Wrangler and drove around Pigeon Forge for about and hour, trying to find our way back to the campsite. It probably wouldn’t have been so bad, had we not been trying to avoid the classical car show (and had I not piped up and said I thought I remembered the way). We passed a couple cops, all without seatbelts, and lap sitting going on in the front seat. Awesome times.

I know that we did a ton of stuff that made us absolutely bust with laughter, but of course I can’t remember any of it now.
I do remember one of the funny things we did was… Kyle, Clint, and myself hid under the Jeep (laying on the ground), and waited for the girls to come walking by to scare them. When they finally did, Kyle and I were pointed the wrong way, and Clint didn’t act. So, we just were “chillin’” under the Jeep for a couple more minutes untill they shined a flashlight under the Jeep because they thought my shoe was a duck.

Anyway… Something else pretty neat going on right now, is that I am working on a script for a short film/movie to show at church or Elevate. I have the youth pastor’s backing, and he gave me some ideas for it. I still need to talk to our Sr. pastor about it though. It’s going to be a pretty big project, but hopefully with the Church’s help, I’ll be able to do a lot of things that I normally wouldn’t be able to. I am already starting up character designs and trying to figure out feasible special effects shots. Might even have to do a couple of prosthetics for scars. Goodness…

However, I am getting ahead of myself. I still need to finish the script. At least the youth pastor said he would help me with it, once his schedule clears up a bit. Which would be a couple months most likely. Why do things have to always be so complicated?

Letsee… What else… Ah yes, I started the application process for Moody Bible Institute in Chicago. I still need to go over to Dalton state here in town and see what all they want for the application process. I went onto their website, and I swear they purposefully don’t want you to figure out how to do anything on it. It’s crazy.

Okay… that’s it for now I think. Tah tah!

It’s been so long since I have made any posts. I should feel ashamed of myself, however I am not. So, all two of you are probably not wondering what’s going on in my life right now. So, of course I am going to tell you. That is, I’ll tell you if I can figure it out myself. It’s a little bit confusing at the moment.

So, at the moment I am still out of a job. However, I am starting to do a couple things with my life, because I am getting seriously sick of sitting around. Like, seriously serious.
So, I have been doing a couple things with the church (designing and building a website, designing shirts, and other stuff). I have also recently started a script for a movie that I want to do in junction with the church for the youth group. I am not sure how I am going to get it all accomplished, but maybe it’ll come to something.

Really, that is about all that’s going on. Man, my life is not all that productive right now. About as productive as a pile of poo… steaming, and that’s about it. Not moving, at least to the naked eye. Wow. What a great annalogy. (Raises eyebrow.)

So anyway… to give me a little bit more filler, I am going to do this survey from Nikki’s blog. You don’t have to read it, it’s likely not going to be all that interesting anyway. Not to mention I do so many of them, that you probably know all the information already. How sad.

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If you knew you could not fail, what would you do?
I would be a writer and director, I do believe. I would love to write books and screenplays, then make them into movies. Man, so awesome.

What is your zodiac sign?
Saggitarious, or however you speel it.

Do you want to learn another language?
Gaelic of any and all sorts would be pretty sweet. Then no one could keep up with my conversations (in the States). It’s hard enough for them already.

5 things you can’t live without:
God, sustanance, sleep, friends, books.

Do you have any siblings?
I wish I did. Maybe life wouldn’t be so lonely.

If you could plan your ultimate vacation, where would you go?
Where WOULDN’T I go?

What mountain would you want to climb someday?
In a perfect world, I would say that I would love to climb Everest. However, I don’t know as if I will ever get around to it. Wouldn’t that be so amazing though? Standing at the top of the world. Any direction you look, you just see the uninterupted vastness of God’s glory and creation.

Say something to the person who tagged you:
Sup! I imagine I’ll talk to you tomorrow, however if I don’t, I’ll see you Thursday.

What do you think has been the greatest invention in your lifetime?
The internet, of course. Thanks Al Gore, you’re the best.

What kind of magazines do you read?
Covert Side

What’s your occupation?
Occupation? You mean, like a job? That’s a good one.

What’s really creepy?
According to a lot of people, I am. However, they change their mind once they get to know me. I’m a charmer… har har.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhm… To tell you the truth, I have no idea. I know there was someone, but I don’t remember who it was. I told Nikki not all that long ago… maybe she’ll leave a comment with who it was, if she remembers.

What’s your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Well, my last one was Time Travelers Wife. However, at the moment I haven’t been able to put down my bible. It’s got so many great and inspiring stories in it. Which, a lot of people wouldn’t really view that as a good answer. So, other than that… I really am not into a whole lot right now.

What are you listening to right now?
Well, I was listening to Lara Ruggles myspace page a few minutes ago. I’ve been listening to a lot of Jars of Clay lately, though.

What are you most excited for?
I dunno. I guess I am looking forward to this weekend pretty good.

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Facebook, DIII, and sometimes Twitter. I go a ton of other places too, but not every time.

What was the last thing you bought?
Stuff for dinner today, by not with my money. Mom sent me to the store for it. So, the last thing that I personally bought was a bowl of chili the other night at Wendy’s. Last thing that wasn’t food was, gasoline. Before that, some new pants at Wal*Mart.

What’s the closest you’ve come to becoming a pop star/winning an Oscar?
I have starred in several movies from Thirsty Dog Productions.

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Well, seizure!

I wonder why the Church cries for revival, but doesn’t do anything about it. They aren’t willing to get out of their comfort zone. It’s time to get uncomfortable. I am guilty of the same thing, but why have we gotten so complacent? Why …have we allowed sin to crawl into the very heart of what we hold dear? Christians sitting in their pew on Sunday morning, to look the part, then right back to wickedness by 3:00?

We need to shake the foundations, rattle some cages. Yes, people in the church might get offended, they might ask us to leave the church… but are we so afraid of that, that we won’t say what needs to be said?

Look at the apostles, they were beaten, stoned, even killed for saying things that others avoided. We should be taking inspiration from them. Don’t be afraid to commit yourself to God. This isn’t a time for pansies!

If you are threatened with your life, to stop serving the God who made ALL things, is he not big enough to take care of you?

Get off your pew, and jump around, Christians! Make some noise! You serve a mighty God! Why do you sit quietly? Are you afraid of being looked at as a crazy person?
Imagine what God is looking at you as, for not getting excited about him!!

Let us rise up! The time is approaching for a renewing of strength. I will not be silent! He is a mighty God, and he is worthy of all my worship, and of yours.

These are a couple of poems that I wrote while I was getting my oil changed the other day… I like the first one better.

Hell–
Always falling
ever weeping
pain and torture
no rest for the weary
what repreave
none I see
If only I had
made him my king
riches untold
water abound
loving father
solid ground
I refused him
now I fall
forever and always
will I crawl

Life–
In this world
I will travel
always looking
through the rabble
forever looking
for my place
will I find
that amazing grace
I was told
of amazing love
how can this be
for a sinner
like me?
does he know
of my foolish pride
when he comes
will I hide?
maybe I shall
take his hand
he shall lead me
to his promised land
I have found him
or has he found me?
Dark and disparing
I felt lonely
but now I know
the truth of life
a sinner needs
not to strife
he’s always waiting
with open arms
he will not let you
come to harm

I notice that I am going longer and longer without making a post on my blog. This happens every time I start up a blog. It’s like I start off and it’s going great. Then something happens, and I just lose it. I stop making posts, and it really makes me sad. I don’t know what to do about it.

Of course, other than just making posts. No matter how short they are.
Just post because I feel like it.

On a whole different topic, it sometimes makes me sad that my friends have completely changed in the past six months. Within the past six months, I have gone from wanting to spend all my time in Ellijay, because that’s where everyone was and they didn’t like to go anywhere… to all the time being on the road. Between Ellijay and Rome all the time.

Even within Ellijay, I have been traveling more. The Blizzard’s and I have started doing more together. Like this past Saturday we went Jeeping out in Cashes Valley. We had a great time! Six months ago, I had pretty much stopped doing things like that. I have no idea why, either. There was no reason for it… I just stopped.

I know I commented on this a few posts ago, but I still am so thankful for it. That is friends that I can pray with and have conversations about God with. People my age that are on fire for the Lord. It’s amazing and refreshing to see and be a part of.

Last night Lorena and I were on the phone for quite some time, talking about God and his designs for his children. It’s like a recharge for my batteries, you know? It’s been so tremendously long since I have been able to be in a relationship where we both receive blessings from each other. Not just me mentoring the other person (like the kids), or me being mentored to (like the guys).

Words can’t really describe the feeling of walking together down the straight and narrow path.
(Content sigh)… Thank you, my God… My King… My Daddy.

I think Lauren gave me the knot in her neck. I woke up this morning, and my neck is hurting.

Anyway… I had a great time this weekend. I went over to Berry on Thursday night, and went to the weekly swing dance. I had an overall good time, but only danced like… four songs, because there was a lot of Latino musica being played… and I am not good enough to dance that yet.  So, I watched for the most part. It was fun watching everyone out there having a good time. (Other than the snogging that one couple was doing.)

For the most part, we really didn’t do a whole lot over the weekend… but we hung out and had a good time. It was fun enough that I didn’t notice we weren’t really doing much.
Beth and I got Lauren to watch V for Vendetta. That was pretty awesome. It’s been a while since I have seen it. I need to go buy another copy, as mine is missing. Maybe I should get it on Blu Ray, to speed up the process of getting a Blu Ray player.

There were so many pictures of me taken over the weekend, it’s ridiculous. I would have broken the card, had I realized they were all going to be put up for the world to see.
Though, there are a few good ones with Beth and Lauren with me that didn’t turn out bad.

Last night before I left Lauren, Beth, and I all prayed. Gosh, it felt good to do that with friends. It’s been a while since I have had anyone to pray with. It’s always nice to talk to Dad when you have people to share his love with.

Alright, I’m off… Not sure to what to do… but I am.

Yes, I am posting this here too… I am too lazy to make a real post.

Traits:
1. I have a very poor self image, and I am very hard on myself. Even to the point of hating myself, a good part of the time. This is my worst trait.
2. I have a problem with how all these things are centered on me. I hate being the center of attention.
3. I have OCD on certain things. I actually arranged all my facts into groups. Which, you can obviously see.
4. For some reason, a lot of people come to me for advice.

Living:
5. Some day, I wish to live on a sustainable farm. Complete with bee hives.
6. Given the opportunity, I would move to Ireland… right now. I could be packed and ready to go within 10 minutes. Which is sad, never having been there before.

Dying:
7. I am okay with dying, if it is my time to go.
8. I almost wasn’t born (don’t worry, not abortion).
9. I very nearly drowned when I was 17.
10. I watched my horse die. He died with his head practically in my lap.
11. Some of the hardest moments in my life, came before I was 21. Others around me, who have seen 30-40 more years experience than I have, agree with that statement.

Religion:
12. I once made the mistake of asking God for patience. Not advisable.
13. I have toyed with the idea of going to a monastery/abbey and completely devoting all my time to God. I don’t know if I could quite handle it though. God made my heart desire a family.
14. I have a habbit of when I pray, it turns into an actual conversation and I refer to God as “dad”. I worry sometimes that that’s not a good idea.

Misc:
15. I have four good friends. Two of which are brothers that I have known for 15 years, and two that I met through horses.
16. If given the choice, I would be nocturnal.
17. I am addicted to wikipedia. I don’t ever edit it, but I read it constantly. I love to study random things, all the time.
18. I have a CCP and CCW.
19. My three favorite smells are: Freshly cut grass, rain, and books.
20. Fox hunting is my lost passion… I wish I still could.
21. I want to learn how to play the violin, and the bagpipe.
22. I almost had a brother, through adoption.
23. I have trained horses for the Police Dept. for use in Marti Gras in Mobile, Al.
24. I once had a headache appear so quickly and so forcefully that it knocked me to the floor. It then persisted in staying around for a couple weeks as a massive migrane.
25. I have ridden horses casually/for fun with an Olympian or two.

Today at work I had the most interesting conversation with a fellow at work. It was technically a series of conversations, but none-the-less…
We were talking about spiritual warfare, Satan, heaven, and spiritual gifts, pretty much every time we saw each other throughout the day. It was nice to be able to discuss that openly at work, and not have to fear about someone getting onto us about it.
There was another guy who was not a Christian (as far as I know), that was listening and started asking questions too. So, maybe God answered my prayer of being able to be a light to those in my workplace.

We had one of the regional supervisors get in on the conversation too. He argued that there absolutely would not be animals in heaven. I wanted to ask him how exactly he knew, if he had God’s telephone number, or something.

He was going on about how the whole point of heaven was for us to worship God, and that animals can’t worship God, so why would they be there?
I know we will be worshiping God, but… I have a hard time believing that God wouldn’t have things there for our happiness as well. Animals make people happy… why wouldn’t God put his creations of joy for his people, in Heaven?

He also said that I was crazy, because I thought I remembered something about Jesus coming back on a white horse in the end times. He was quite derogatory towards me when I said that. I get the feeling he doesn’t like me.

Anyway… it was still nice, being able to talk about it.

Edit: Aha… Here it is…
“And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he doth judge and make war.” — REVELATION 19:11