Mar 08 2013
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Friends, Life, School

What the farglewarts?

This past week has been spring break at college. I have officially not been in class for an entire 7 days, and it feels like I’ve hardly accomplished anything that I was supposed to be doing over the break. I have two tests and a paper due when I go back, and I haven’t completed or studied for much of anything. I had a study session with my friend Bree at the library on Tuesday, but that’s as much as I’ve seemingly accomplished. I’ve worked on my paper several times, but it’s just going so slowly–as most of my papers have been going lately. I used to be able to knock papers out fairly easily… but my last two have taken me over a week for a simple 4 page paper. I don’t know what’s going on, but I don’t like it.

Part of the reason that things might be so difficult this week, is that I have moved into a new house, and been trying to get my car up and running again. My mind has been on several other things, that I haven’t put much thought into my paper. That needs to change this weekend–I need to work on it, no matter what. However, that’s probably not going to happen, as tonight my best friends want to get together, and tomorrow, I’m going out with my girlfriend to meet some of her friends. Tomorrow during the day though, I should have time to knock some of it out… I just need to set my alarm and not sleep in, in the morning. Which, if the cats continue their crying tonight, I might oversleep without even realizing it. They kept me up really late last night, looking for their mom and dad… whom are in Sudan, Africa right now… which leads me to my next paragraph.

The house I mentioned that I moved in to is a fairly large and lovely log cabin in a part of a resort, in the middle of the woods. It’s daaaaaark and quiet there at night. Almost eerie, but in an awesome sort of way. ANYWAY–the owners of said cabin are on a mission trip to Sudan and left their three kitties behind. So, they hired me to come stay at their place and watch their cats for them, for the next three months. It doesn’t pay very well at all, but I’m helping them out and I’m able to live on my own for a while. So, I’m not complaining. The one thing I will complain about though, is that the cats have decided that the potted plants make better toilets than the litter box. Bleh…

Anyway, that’s about it for this update. Pray for me to be able to finish my stupid paper. If I could write as easily for it as I do for this, it’d probably be done by now. Stupid fact collecting… it’s slowing me down.

Oh, and if you’re wondering about the title of this post, that’s just my new, awesome word.

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Feb 28 2013
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Life

Randomness

Whew, what a couple days it’s been. There’s nothing that’s particularly exciting that’s happened, but I just feel so tired. I haven’t been sleeping very well lately–last night I looked at my clock around 4:30… and I heard my mother’s alarm go off at 6:00. I don’t think I’m going into my full REM cycle of sleep, and so I’m not getting any true sleep at all. So, needless to say, I’m really tired… and I am having a really hard time thinking. Putting the words in the post together seems like a daunting task… so I think I’m going to wait to post something until I’m more awake. That will, hopefully, be tomorrow.

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Feb 23 2013
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Creativity, Film, Love, Stream of Consciousness, Writing

Reading Helps Writing

For Valentines day Sabrina got me a rather large can of some of the best loose leaf Chai tea that I’ve ever had. I’ve recently started drinking more loose leaf tea again. It’s been a while since I have, and I’m really enjoying it. This particular chai has little bits of ginger and clove in it. I shared some with my mother, as she’d never really tried loose leaf teas before. She found the little pieces of the ginger and clove in there, and began to pick them out and eat them. Then she decided that she’s going to save the left over leaves and use them as a spice rub for chicken. I’d never really thought about doing that before, but I don’t see any reason why it wouldn’t work and be absolutely wonderful. So, all that to say– I’ve only been dating Sabrina a couple weeks and she’s already spoiling me. I only got her some chocolate truffles. I felt really cheap.

I’m going down to her house in a couple hours, and I’m going to introduce her to the world of Riddick, I think. She’s never seen Pitch Black, and in fact had never heard of Riddick before I was talking about it. I, of course, knew this had to be remedied immediately. I hope she’s in the mood for a sci-fi thriller… but how could you not be? It’s Riddick! Anyway, I hope it’s going to be a good night. I’ve been kind of feeling down as of late, so hopefully I can bring my spirits up enough to have a good time tonight.

I think I’ve figured out another reason that I haven’t been able to really write a whole lot recently. I haven’t really read anything for enjoyment in a REALLY long time. When I do, it tends to inspire me to write and my use of language and vernacular improves as well. I’ve been noticing lately that that has been lacking. I’ve been using smaller words and have not been as expressive as I used to be. I think it all stems from the fact that I haven’t been reading works of literature that inspire me to be creative. There’s the works of literature that I’ve read in World Literature class, but it’s just not the same. I’m required to read those, and so it’s instantly boring and not inspiring in the least bit.
Sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of the night with a fully formed story idea in my head, with lots of flowery language, and it sounds surprisingly good… but I always forget to write it down. All my writing utensils are too far away to get climb out of my warm bed and brave the ever increasingly coldness that is my bedroom. It’s nearly an adventure of its own that I could write about and create a fantastical story.

Speaking of fantastical stories… I watched “The Raven” last night, about Edgar Allan Poe’s final days, in which he helps solve murders that have been inspired by his writings. I was surprisingly impressed with it… Although it was more macabre and gory than I prefer, it was still not a bad film. Especially when I looked up Poe after finishing the film and realized that a lot of the stuff they had in the movie was inspired by what actually happened to him… such as the way in which he died. Which, by the way, that is not a spoiler. The film starts off telling you that he’s going to. So, no yelling at me, mmkay?
Upon watching that film though, it made me remember that I’ve been wanting to do a mystery novel for quite a while. I’m always impressed with the thought that has to go into stories like that. Where you have to set up the “who-done-it” at the beginning of the story and allow your readers/watchers enough clues to figure it out if they’re paying attention, yet make it hard enough that none of them can. I think I need to read some more mystery novels and then give it a shot myself. I think it could be fun.

 

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Feb 21 2013
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Film, Life, Stream of Consciousness

A Post A Day?

So, I’ve been kind of in a bad rut as of late. I haven’t been doing much writing at all… like… at all. The funny thing about writing is that if you don’t write, you’ll find that you can’t write. So, I am trying to bust down that barrier by doing the only thing you can do TO break it down–writing. It doesn’t really even matter what you write, as long as you just do it. My English professor at school–Professor Shope–has said the same thing. So that’s exactly what I am going to attempt to do here on my blog. I’m not really going to write anything specific, but I will try to keep the lines of communication between my fingers and my brain open and flowing, so that I can express things I’m thinking and get them written out. It’s really been far too long since I’ve done that, and it needs to end NOW! CREATIVITY!!!!!

You know, thinking back on my bloggingness, I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned Dr. Who. Of course, I’m not sure that I was a whovian back when I last wrote… I don’t think I was, actually. It seems so weird that I’ve been one for a relatively short period of time, and yet I love it so much. There’s really not much to say about it, except that it’s one of the best shows ever made and you should take it upon yourself to watch it. I have found that it’s rather hard to describe it without sounding like a complete and utter moron. It’s something that is so hard to explain, but so inexplicably fantastic. So… I know that doesn’t help you in whether you should watch it or not, but take it from me… you should. Simply.

In other news, since we’re not to a point where we want to officially announce any of our new film stuff yet, I’ll just take a moment to mention them here. Since this is an unofficial channel, and not read by anyone other than people who probably already know about the projects in some form ANYWAY. Clint has been working on several new scripts that have a lot of potential. I’m really looking forward to working on them. There’s a chance that one of them we’ll be filming down at Berry College and taking use of the old plantation house, if we can get permission to film in there. I should ride down and talk to them about it one of these days.

That story is about a guy and his messed up family that happens to have a dark secret of magic wielding (of sorts). The guy doesn’t know anything about it until it’s revealed over the course of the story, but it’s a fantastic idea. I’ve been wanting to do a story with some fantastical elements that isn’t just completely whacked out (like Scarial Killer). This has a lot of potential to be edgy and dramatic with some escapism thrown in. From what I remember of the script, there’s no visual magic that takes place, but a lot of mental type stuff. It’s really cool… that’s all I’ll say for now.

Another story is a simple “cat and mouse” story about a guy on the run from a cop who thinks he killed the cop’s partner… basically. I haven’t read the latest version of the script, but I think it’ll be a good little adventure. There’s not too much I can say without spoiling it, but we should be filming that one sometime in the next couple months, if I had to guess.

Anyway…. I guess that’s enough writing for now. I really need to go and do some reading for my political science class. I have a test on Monday that I really should pass, seeing as how it’s my favorite class this semester and I’d hate to bomb it.

Adios, mustachios!

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Feb 18 2013
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Update!

So, as most of these posts start out: Woah, I’m actually making a post!
Now that we have that out of the way, I can continue on to epic post making business. However, I have roughly five minutes before I have to get ready for school, as I have wasted my entire day doing absolutely nothing but watching videos on Youtube and talking to my friend Kyle (kyleblizzard.com) about his new GH2 camera (thirstydogproductions.com) and a website he’s working on creating for a local BBQ eatery.

I don’t really know where to even begin, as a lot of stuff in my life has been changing of late. Even if it’s not really changing, it seems like it is.
Well, I guess for the biggest news is that I have recently started dating a woman who lives in Canton. It’s really quite odd how it all came together. I haven’t known her all that long, but we hit it off really well and things just kind of happened quickly. It’s definitely not the way I’ve ever dated in the past. I’ve always been really slow to talk to someone about my feelings for them, and never even imagined asking someone out on a date that I wasn’t good friends with first. I suppose my last experience with that changed my outlook on things. Anyway–Things with her are going really well right now, and I’m enjoying having someone that I can flirt with without feeling like a complete scumbag.

In other news, I’ve “burned bridges” with a few friends. One of them caused the rest. I had a friend that had become rather irrational in her treatment of those around her, and was doing things that just continually made it hard to be her friend. At one point, she just came right out and said that she didn’t want to be friends with any of her guy friends any more, and stopped all communication with me. A couple months later, I tried to contact her just to see how things were going, as she was still in contact with one of our common friends, and she flat out refused and was kind of rude about it. At that point, all the things she’d continued to do just finally got me to a point of no return, and I burned the bridge. Unfortunately, it affected my friendship with her parents, her sister, her brother-in-law, and another one of her friends. Part of me is happy to be moving on and not having to deal with, or be reminded of, all the drama… but on the other hand, they were good friends when they were actually friends. They all had this thing about not ever staying in contact… I suppose I should’ve taken it as a sign that I really wasn’t important enough TO stay in contact with, and just let things go sooner. Oh well– I like to trust the good in people, and it often gets me hurt. All this went down starting in October of last year, and I still think about it pretty frequently. It still really hurts.

I’m in my third semester of college now. I believe this is my last semester that I’ll be able to go to school in Ellijay. I’ll either have to move to Dalton or commute several times a week. I really don’t want to commute, as I could probably get an apartment in Dalton for about the same price as it would cost me to drive back and forth. So, I’m looking at moving. I really am ready to be done with school… it eats up so much of my time, and I’m always tired. I’d really like to devote more time to filmmaking, but it’s really hard when I’m going to school and trying to get homework done, plus regular work, and trying to find time to fit sleeping in there. Oh, and writing blogs too. I have ideas for films, web series, and other little projects, but I just never feel like working on them when I have a free moment. I’m also not able to make it to as many film days as I’d like, because I’m always busy. I really need to figure out what I’m doing with my life.

Anyway, I am now running about 15 minutes behind schedule, but I think it helped putting thoughts down on “paper”. I really should do this more often… but don’t I always say that?

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Jun 07 2012
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Church, Film, Love

Woah…

I still have a blog? In fact, why do I even have this domain name? I thought it was cool like 10 years ago, but whatever am I keeping it around for? It’s absolutely useless, like most of my domains. I should really just get rid of this one and set up something new.

So, I suppose I can update ALL my readers (read: 0) on what I have been up to lately. Which, unsurprisingly, isn’t a whole lot. Though, if I go back and try to list everything I’ve done since my last blog post, it’s too much and I don’t feel like it. So, we’re in a bit of a connundrum here. I have no idea what I should say. I could just do my normal thing and not say anything at all… but I don’t feel like doing that either. So, I guess I will pick out a couple things here and there to mention and leave the rest to the dusty chambers of my memory.

I finished my first semester of college. That’s pretty rockin’, right? I mean, I’ve only got another seven semesters to go! It’ll go by in a flash! (ahem)
Anyway… I made a 4.0 GPA on my first semester. I’ve never understood how that works, but whatever. I did it and that’s all that really matters. I don’t think I’ll do quite so good next semester, as I have a REAL math class that I have to take, as opposed to the one for retarded children, like myself.

Letsee, what other things have happened? I fell in love, nothing came of it, and then I went on my merry way. That’s not the bad part though… the most infuriating thing about that whole situation, is that people still tease me about the girl and I dating, even though that’s done and over. We’re best friends, and nothing more. I wish people would believe the things you tell them, and then just shut up about it. Instead, they go on like they know better than the actual people in the situation. Sometimes I really hate people and want to move to Mars. Just leave me alone and let me live my life!

In other news, I’ve been working for months and months on a movie that I was supposed to film this summer… I even grew out my hair and beard for it. It’s now looking like it’s not going to happen though. It’s going to be postponed until next year, or even never. We keep hitting delays and realizing that our script is really weak and in need of overhauls. So, we’re now on our third or fourth total rewrite of the blasted thing. I reall wish we could just finish it and film it. I’m getting tired of working on other people’s projects and not getting to work on my own. I’ve been spending a lot of time on film sets, but never working on my own stuff. I’ve spent countless hours on The Lumber Baron and several hours on Lost in the Woods… both of which are awesome, but they aren’t mine. I need to hurry up and flesh out the web series I want to make.

I started going to a new church since my last update, I do believe. It’s called The Orchard. I enjoy it so much more than the church I was going to. The old church felt like it was dying, if not already dead. The sad part is that none of the poeple that are in charge there seem to realize it. Or if they do realize it, they don’t care.
You know, when I stopped going there… not a single person from the church contacted me to see what had happened. It’s possible that some friends of mine told them that I had started going to another church, but still… my sundayschool leader never contacted me to make sure everything was alright. Which, granted, no one really ever talked to me… I was the “ghost” there that I am everywhere (the person that no one remembers)… but no one ever contacted my parents when they left either, and they played a major part in the church at one point in time. My father was an evening pastor there for at least six months. When he stopped going, no one contacted him to make sure he was okay either. It goes to show that that church seems to have a problem with connecting with the people that go there. It’s had financial problems and everything else these past couple years. I’ll be surprised if it makes it another 5 years.

Diablo 3 finally came out! It’s only been 12 years… it’s pretty fun too. Thank goodness.
Oh… I also beat Mass Effect 3. Great game.

Yeah, I think that’s about it. I’ll leave you to it. Cheerio.

Mar 09 2012
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Life

Needs…

It’s now only been about three months since I last had a job, but it’s been about two years since I last had any income. I worked free of charge for almost two years, and it really hurt my bank account. I now only have money left over from a grant that I got for college. I have tried very hard to make it last as long as possible, but I’ve accumulated so many things that I’ve needed to get or replace, that most of the money has dissapeared very quickly. Just the basics like clothing, put a very large dent in the funds that I had. I had so many holey clothes that I tossed out, it’s hard to believe that I had anything decent left.

It comes down to the problem that I need a job now. I can only do a part time, with really whacky hours, but I need something. So, I hear Lowe’s is hiring…

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Feb 19 2012
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Life, Things to Ponder

Things to Ponder: The Weight of the World

Do you ever feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders? Pressing you deeper into the dirt and mud that is building up around your feet? If only you could get a little bit farther, you could lay down some of the weight and just relax for a bit… but the weight and mud are causing you to slow down so much, that you practically come to a stop. You’re just standing there; a prisoner of your own burdens. People walk by, looking at you but not realizing that you’re not actually supposed to be stuck there. They look at you and see you as a statue, admiring your for your strength and steadfastness, when in actuality, you just wish you could run? Eventually, the weight starts messing with your head. You see things that aren’t really there… and you feel like you’re completely alone. Even if it’s not true, your mind starts thinking that the people who would once come and keep you company and made the world a better place, have stopped caring. They’ve stopped coming by to visit… or they’ve just joined the rest of the world in watching you struggle on.

When I think of a metaphor for depression, this is what I come up with.

Feb 16 2012
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Friends, Life, Love, Spirituality, Stream of Consciousness, Things to Ponder

Things to Ponder: Life…

What is life, really? We all have one; it should be an easy question to answer. Unlike love and friendship, whom some people find themselves unable to find, life is shared by every being on this planet. It’s a word that we look over without really thinking much about it – “I am alive. Moving on…”. Is it just a way to define something as an organism? Do we see it merely as a progression through time? The passage from point A to point B with a series of fortunate and unfortunate events in-between. Others see it as more of a process of spirituality than true passage of time on the earth. The Buddhists believe in many lives; but even there, is it many lives, or is it one continuous life lived along the course of many periods of time? The Christians, Muslims, and Buddhists all believe in eternal life. Is this different from the life that so many see as us living on the earth, or is it the same life… never-ending? When does life really start? Is it at birth? At conception? Or does it stretch on to before conception… eternally? Does life only count if we inhabit a body?

Just some things to think about…

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Feb 14 2012
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Love, Stream of Consciousness

Themes, themes, and more themes…

Well, I might have finally found a theme that I like. It’s got nice colors and a nice layout, promoted images, shows the entire post without having to click to see more… I quite like it! So, I’ll stick with it for a while and see how it goes. Themes are so hard to pick; they have to have the right personality and feel… but I am never sure what that is.

So, today is valentines day. I never know whether or not to call it “Singles Awareness Day”, because that seems like someone who was single and bitter came up with that. I’m not actually bitter about about it, but I find the name highly amusing. Sure, I’d be happy if there was a special girl that I was taking out on a date tonight… but it’s not important to me that I must have someone. In fact, this valentines day, I feel quite happy that I don’t have to buy a special gift or do something special for someone. The demo for Mass Effect 3 came out today, and I get to spend my free time playing that, instead of trying to figure out what to do for someone. It might seem a little selfish, but it’s actually quite enjoyable.

I did think about going down to Atlanta for a dance tonight, but I really don’t feel like driving all that way after I get out of school; especially when tomorrow is my early day in classes. It’s just not worth it… So, I will play Mass Effect 3 and completely forget it’s valentine’s day. I wish luck to all those people out there with significant others though!

I am really enjoying this laptop so far. It seems weird to have a laptop that the screen doesn’t continually go on the fritz on you. It’s quite nice…

Anyway… there’s a small event at Starbucks in about an hour and I have a couple things I want to get done before it starts. So, I guess I’ll sign off for now!

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